I call my testimony vanilla. Because my story is not jaw dropping or awe inspiring when I compare it to others. But it is my story and God will use it.
Jesus came into my heart when I was 5 years old, not 15, not 25. For as long as I can remember I have had a relationship with God. Jesus was my Friend, God was my father, and the Holy Spirit was my walkie-talkie.
In college I went through a period where I felt adrift from God. It was my own fault, I made excuses: no car, no one to go with… I finally wised up my senior year when I went with a friend to LifeChurch Jenks. It was the first time in my life I could focus on the message the pastor was preaching. It was also the place I met my husband.
I can trace exactly where I am today to that decision to attend church again. That’s the beauty of hindsight. But in all that time I’ve never had an audible encounter with God. There are people in my life that have heard God speak to them as if He was in the room. That has never happened for me, instead I’ve felt his direction through the Holy Spirit.
In college I was told by a friend that my story reminded them of Esther. Esther was a normal girl who was chosen by God to save her people, the Jews. But God never audibly spoke to Esther. When Esther was told about the danger to her people and that she would need to go to the King, she prayed:
“Then Esther sent this reply to Mordecai: ‘Go, gather together all the Jews who are in Susa, and fast for me. Do not eat or drink of three days, night or day. I and my attendants will fast as you do. when this done, I will go to the King, even though it is against the law. And if I perish, I perish.’ ”Esther 4:15-16
This is what my parents taught me, before you make any decisions, you pray. Esther prayed and had faith that God would protect her and her people.
My encouragement to you is that God may not speak audibly to you, but that doesn’t mean He’s not watching over you. Take a minute today and write down your story. Think about where you have been and where you are going. Your story is your testimony and God will use you no matter the circumstances.
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