I really love organizing. No matter what time of the year it is, there is always something I am re-arranging in my house. Every time I have company over, I have to give a fair warning that I decided to organize one of my cabinets (again). But recently, in the middle of my organizing spree, I learned something about myself: I had a lot of “stuff”. Sure, I use a lot of it, but how often was I using the rest? I noticed that my love for creating an order to things wasn’t being very useful if I was organizing stuff that I simply do not use.
While I was staring at the organized mess in front of me I came to a realization. My mess is a reflection of my mindset. Places of hurt that I haven’t wanted to go to God about because it was too much. Promises that He spoke to me years ago that haven’t happened yet. My mind started to sift through all of the emotions I was experiencing while I stared at the piles on my floor. I was exhausted and I hadn’t even started to organize yet.
Hagar knew this feeling very well. One moment she was serving Sarah in her home and then suddenly she was being mistreated by her. I may not have been there with Hagar, but I can only imagine the confusion, fear and loneliness she was feeling. Let’s read the rest of the story from Genesis 16:
7 The angel of the Lord found Hagar near a spring in the desert; it was the spring that is beside the road to Shur.
8 And he said, “Hagar, slave of Sarai, where have you come from, and where are you going?”
“I’m running away from my mistress Sarai,” she answered.
9 Then the angel of the Lord told her, “Go back to your mistress and submit to her.”
10 The angel added, “I will increase your descendants so much that they will be too numerous to count.”
Hagar was given a promise that day, just like you and I have been given promises. But instead of putting that promise in a pile up against her bedroom wall, Hagar rejoiced because God found her and saw her in the middle of loneliness and confusion. Out of this passage comes my favorite name of God: El Roi -The God who sees.
13 She gave this name to the Lord who spoke to her: “You are the God who sees me,” for she said, “I have now seen the One who sees me.”
No matter how many promises you have pushed aside from God or the amount of painful situations you’ve crammed in a closet to “forget about”, God hasn’t forgotten. He is patiently waiting for you to open up so He can help. In the middle of your mess and confusion you are seen. I don’t think my house has ever been as clean as it has been the last few weeks because of the connection I recently had about my home and my mind. I deep cleaned every cabinet and drawer in my house while I allowed God to clean up the mess that doubt and fear made in my mind.
Was it easy? Uhm, not at all! Was it worth it? MOST DEFINITELY. I never would have thought that a little home organization would have turned into a mind decluttering project, but I am so thankful that it happened. Now, my home is happier and my mind is more free. And one pile at a time, I believe yours can be, too.
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