I’ve heard the word “vulnerability” a lot lately, mostly in reference to social media. While some want their platform to be a highlight reel, others want it to be a place where they can discuss both the happy and not-so-fun situations happening in their lives. Whether you stick to showing only the good times or choose to disclose everything, let’s continue to remember that this is still an outward representation of our lives.
I’ve found that the place I need to practice vulnerability the most is internally, with my own shortcomings, the areas in my life where I don’t need a perspective check, I need a heart check, and where the only prayer I can pray is this echo of David: “Help, Lord ...” (Psalm 12:1)
Help to diminish my pride and build up humility. Help to replace my judgmental thoughts with love and understanding. Help me to not compare myself with someone else, but rather with the person You called me to be.
I’m inspired by David’s vulnerability. He isn’t afraid to express anger, disappointment, or fear, and instead brings it all to God and places it at His feet. David knows that the only way to find refuge is through the Lord. He remembers God’s good deeds and he worships Him, but David also expresses his own faults. He asks to be made aware of the areas he has allowed the enemy to gain access to in his heart and invites God to humble and save him.
“O Lord my God, if I have done this,
if there is wrong in my hands,
if I have repaid my friend with evil or
plundered my enemy without cause,
let the enemy pursue my soul and overtake it,
and let him trample my life to the ground
and lay my glory in the dust.”
I want so badly to be like David. To let down my walls and be vulnerable at God’s feet, to allow Him to help me see my own flaws, the “wrong in my hands,” and save me. I know I can’t live out my calling if I’m hiding behind sassy thoughts or comments, desiring to be “better” or “right.”
I’m grateful I have honest people in my life who I can be vulnerable with. I’m especially thankful for a husband and a marriage where we’ve given each other permission to call the other out—kindly and with love, of course—when we aren’t emulating the beautiful children God created us to be.
There are three things I hope you get out of this post:
Ask the Holy Spirit what aspects of your life you should share.
Maybe your calling is to help others smile, maybe it’s to show others they aren’t alone in a tough time. Maybe it’s a mixture of both. Share what you feel led to share and don’t let anyone’s opinion of whether it’s too much or too little have any effect on you.
I pray for you to find your tribe.
Seek out relationships with people who are going to accept you as you are now. But who won’t stop helping you get to where God has called you to go.
Most importantly, spend consistent time reflecting with God.
Check in with Jesus: ask Him for help, explain frustrations, and allow Him to encourage you.
I know from personal experience that showing vulnerability at the feet of Jesus isn’t a performance review. He may have some life-changing suggestions, but for the most part, He is going to pour love upon you. Reach out to Him, and just like David you can say, “The Lord has heard my plea; the Lord accepts my prayer.” (Psalm 6:9) He will help mold your heart into something new.