If you look at my college Bible, you will see plenty of notes. In Psalms you will find the same two words with a question mark at the end over and over: “Bipolar much?”
Yes, those are the two words. And yes, they are not the most spiritual or nicest of words, but they were exactly my thoughts. I wondered how the Psalmist could be so convinced of the goodness of God in one moment, and then all of the sudden cry out in desperation for help or just straight up talk about how much he hates so and so? Let me show you one of the many examples:
How precious to me are your thoughts, God!
How vast is the sum of them!
Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand—
when I awake, I am still with you.
If only you, God, would slay the wicked!
Away from me, you who are bloodthirsty!
They speak of you with evil intent;
your adversaries misuse your name.
Do I not hate those who hate you, Lord,
and abhor those who are in rebellion against you?
I have nothing but hatred for them;
I count them my enemies.
Search me, God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.
(Psalm 139: 17-23 NIV)
When I read these verses, I would think, “See? David was hot and then cold, God!” “He’s a yes and then a no!” But suddenly I would hear the Lord say, “And aren’t you that way?” Ouch! What?
God was not trying to condemn me, He just gently reminded me that all us humans are pretty much like David. But unlike him, we don’t say a word. David was vulnerable with God because God was truly his best friend.
God loves it when we are honest, because then we give Him something to work with. If we come to God trying to look perfect, we won’t have a true relationship with Him. David was called “A man after God’s own heart” because he was real.
This month I want to challenge us all to open our hearts to vulnerability. Sounds redundant right? But that is exactly what we need to do. Open our hearts to be open.
I pray we can be inspired to tear down the walls we’ve built in our own hearts and know that our God loves us and wants to help us in our mess, confusion, or hurt. Vulnerability with God is the key to freedom. Being real with God will help you be real with others, and that will set THEM free, because when people see someone who is free to be who they are, they feel attracted to that freedom and will ask where it is coming from.
Join us this month through the book of Psalms and let’s start opening up, shall we?