What are you seeking? Better yet, who are you seeking? Relationships are beautiful and messy all at the same time. It’s hard to find the balance between falling madly in love and losing yourself to the other person. You want to give them all of you, while pouring into your dreams and goals at the same time.
We often look to our significant other to complete us, to make us whole. We crave an intimacy so deep with them that we start to question our worth when we’re not receiving it. When we start to look to other people for our purpose, we lose sight of everything God created us to be. When we start to depend on our significant other for our worth and happiness, we no longer feel capable of accomplishing anything on our own.
We were designed to need God, to crave him and to long for a deeper intimacy only he can fulfill. Yet, we try to create this love with humans, and we’re coming out disappointed every single time. Your spouse, your mom, your sister, your best friend, they were never designed to be the love that never fails you. The more we place people in this category, the more we are hindered. We will come out disappointed every single time, and we will always wonder where we are going wrong.
Unfortunately, I have learned this lesson the hard way. It was the most painful, yet the most beautiful season of my life. Realizing my significant other is not the purpose of my existence. I had begun to believe I was incapable without him.
When that relationship ended, it was brutal. It was a hurt like I had never felt before. I felt as if I had lost everything. I had to reconnect with God and myself. I had to rediscover who I was and what my passions were. I had to find my worth in God alone, and I can assure you it was and still is a difficult process. I had to accept all of my broken pieces and allow God to put them back together. I had to let myself be vulnerable, with God and other people.
I went back to school. I got a promotion at my job. I grew closer with my family and friends. Everything I was doing, I was doing on my own. The Lord was filling me with purpose and fueling my heart with love and endurance to keep pushing forward despite what I had lost.
After almost a year of failures and victories, I can now say (and believe) I am capable. With God, I can do all things. He gives me my purpose. He gives me my worth. He is my joy. He is my peace. He guides the footsteps to my future. He shows me his heart, and I am overwhelmed in the best way. He is the love that never fails me.
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you,” declares the Lord, “and will bring you back from captivity…” Jeremiah 29:11-14
You are capable because he is capable, and you are his.
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