What I think is so fun about God is that He uses things we love to speak to us – even the color gold.
I’m super into Disney, royalty, bridal stuff, and the color gold. Gold started becoming more popular a little over a year ago with decorating trends, jewelry, electronics and furniture. You can go just about anywhere now, and find gold accents to make your home or your outfit shine.
I began seeing gold everywhere, and of course, I was just assuming it was because of its recent popularity, but then I began noticing the Lord was using a color I had been drawn to to speak to me.
It started off with decorating in my apartment. I put gold polka dot decals on my accent wall, spray-painted gold almost everything in my apartment that could be painted, and bought the new gold iPhone. Come September 2014 for my birthday, my boyfriend made me a handmade journal in – you guessed it – gold leather.
After about a year of things like that popping up everywhere and it seeming insignificant, I began going through this process or season called the desert. I was entrenched in this waiting process I felt like I couldn’t get out of, and I felt pressed on every side.
This desert was bringing up some tough stuff that had to be dealt with. The fire of the desert was refining me like gold.
But He knows where I am going. And when He tests me, I will come out as pure as gold. Job 23:10 NLT
I felt forgotten in this desert. I was 28 years old and still waiting for things I longed for to come to pass. That may not be old in your mind, but when you see the things you dream of seemingly happen for everyone else, it can make it difficult. I was struggling with contentment and trust, and it was eating at me.
When things began happening for friends, or friends of friends I would be genuinely happy for them, until I heard, “What’s wrong with you? Why hasn’t that happened for you yet? God is withholding just to punish you.” Those statements may sound like obvious lies, but to me they were real.
They felt so much like truth.
The process of purifying gold is done in fire. When it is in the fire, the impurities in the gold rise to the surface to be scraped off, so all that is left is pure gold.
Once I read that verse from Job, it was like a glimmer of hope in my life.
It was the Lord speaking directly to me, “I know where you are going Ashley. You will come out of this testing as pure as gold.” He knows how to get my attention. He knows that scripture would be highlighted to me, and then I would be able to look all around and see all the gold that is in my life. I began seeing this theme, and now every time I see something gold it feels like a gift, like a whisper from the Lord that He sees me, and I am not forgotten. Even in a desert of waiting.
These trials will show that your faith is genuine. It is being tested as fire tests and purifies gold–though your faith is far more precious than mere gold. So when your faith remains strong through many trials, it will bring you much praise and glory and honor on the day when Jesus Christ is revealed to the whole world. 1 Peter 1:7 NLT